Impatient!

Happy Fall morning to you! I went for a walk early this morning and it was wonderful! I love walking in cool, breezy weather. This morning, though, my hands were really cold, so I dropped my iPhone into the front part of my sports bra so that I could listen to my music hands-free and also pull my hands up into my sleeves to keep them warm. This worked out really well, except the light from the screen of my phone showed through my red shirt, right between my boobs, making me look like Iron Man!

I didn't post anything last week. Not because it was a bad week or an uneventful week. It was just a lazy week. Or maybe it was a busy week, I really can't remember. It was a successful week for my weight loss goal, though. I lost 2.8 pounds! I know that is really good but I, of course, wished the number would've been higher. Still, that is a loss of 7.4 pounds in 2 weeks! This past week has been a bit harder for me because I am getting impatient. I want the weight gone! Now! I don't want to wait 6 more months! I don't want to face the holidays while being on a diet! Now do you see why all of my previous efforts in weight loss have failed?

I know I am doing this the right way, the healthy way. Statistics show that, if you lose weight slowly, you are more likely to keep it off. I know, I know, I know! It still doesn't keep me from being impatient. The honest truth is: I want to be at a point where I have lost enough weight to "deserve" a treat. There, I said it. I am all about treating myself. That is why I am in the shape I am in, duh!. I've never been the kind of girl to "treat" myself once a week or every other week. No. I am so good and wonderful, I deserve a treat every day! Sometimes 2 or 3 times a day! Aren't we all that wonderful? The simple answer is, yes. Yes, we are that wonderful. That is not the issue. The issue with me is HOW I "treat" myself. Treats don't always have to be in the form of something edible. They can be something like a mani/pedi, a new shirt or shoes or makeup. You don't even have to spend money for it to be a treat. Spending time with my family is a treat. Here lately, getting on the computer without having to worry about Bella eating the wood trim on our walls is a treat!

Anyway, especially with the holidays coming up, I sometimes feel like I won't be able to "live" (meaning eat like a "normal" person not on a diet). Again, I never have eaten like a normal person, hence my Jenny Craig membership. I have to remind myself that the holidays are not about the food. We are not celebrating FOOD. We use food to enhance what we are celebrating. Besides, most people stuff themselves beyond misery and gain 5-10 pounds during the holiday season. This is not what I want. I want to be able to nibble, taste, and enjoy a sweet or two so that I don't feel deprived. But, guess what! I CAN do that. In fact, I ate part of a blueberry cream cheese scone AND took a bite from Mackenzie's chocolate chip cookie that were both bought at our local farmers' market on Saturday! I ate it and I enjoyed every single morsel that touched my tastbuds. Here's the great part: I was able to stop. It was enough. And I don't think I ruined my diet. Of course, I'll find out for sure Wednesday morning and then I'll let you know!